Love, I miss you.

After I drafted the last post, the New Guy came over for a few drinks. He got a friend along. We had a fun evening. Then he left with his friend very abruptly. I thought he just left. But he came back! And we talked. He flirted, and it looked like may be he had some feelings for me. And the next few days he seemed fine; smiling at me every time he saw me, talk to me briefly. But again, he is back to not talking, texting; I have yet again become invisible to him. And I've spent hours after that, thinking of him. He is clearly not interested in me.

I am so tired of not being wanted. I want a real, loving relationship. Clearly this is not the guy. I wish it was him, he is so different; not afraid of the society. But it matters to him what his parents think, so may be, he won't be too unconventional. So yea, he is not the one. I guess, if I tell that to myself frequently enough, I will convince myself that he is not the one and won't think of him in that light anymore.

I really wish I have love in my life again. I miss it sooooooo much :'(

Love, where are you?